what is happening to me????

Lately a few things has been bugging me....
first i lost my money then i have this nightmare about losing george, then i got scolding from my parents for spending too much money, broke the bedside lamp....

What is happening to me???

I dun feel alright..in fact i am a bit unhappy...especially about spending too much money bit....
i am still wondering what did i spend the money on...
as most of the new clothes and shoes i bought are from my salary....

if my mom know about this she will definitely nag me about it...i dun even dare tell them i lost part of my salary.....*sad*

i feel really bad i should have think abt parents back in malaysia...
they have to save up and lead a tight life while i am here enjoying....
guilt!!!!!

should have think more abt them....what are you becoming......argh!!!!
i try to save as much as possible..
i dun wan to become another cousin in the making....
ok chiau chuin no more excuse for yourself ....
your dad is working day and night back home in Malaysia just to make sure you lead a comfortable life in Aus....dun disaapoint him by disobeying his wishes....

哎，又加上这次去悉尼他非常的生气。。。
妈，你讲得对我应该学者为将来而打算了
我又不可告诉他们我这次去悉尼市和男朋友一起去，这样他们会更加担心。。。。
没办法啦。。。我想只好这样了。。。。
不过我心里好内疚。。。真的好内疚。

我这个不孝的女儿根本没为父母着想。
还有一个星期我就会去悉尼了。。。心里有点担心。。。
这会是一个怎样的假期。。。我们会不会吵架呢？我们会不会因为发觉到某些事情而闹不合呢？？
虽然这一切还是一个未知数但我还是担心。。。
林巧君，你又开始转牛角尖了。。。。
算了。。希望我会玩得开心。。。